"I generally avoid temptation unless I can't resist it."
~Mae West
Friday morning....testing time....will I get sent home....or will I stay???
In comes Dr. Francois....when I came in: bulging bag of waters, 2-3 cm dilated, 90% effaced. Today: Bag no longer bulging, 2 cm dilated, 70% effaced...I'M GOING HOME!!!! Soooo....why do I feel some hesitation? Don't get me wrong, I have missed my husband like CRAZY, would love to catch up with the kiddos, can't wait to have more meal options, and would LOVE to sleep in my own bed. The problem is I know myself, and I already had a taste of what letting just a little of the "outside world" into my head. To be disciplined enough to sit on the couch all day...with the kitchen right there and the temptation to clean, organize, grocery shop, etc. staring me in the face...well, I need to make sure the Type A+ in me remains focused on the task at hand....KEEPING UP THE INCUBATION!!
In the hospital, I didn't have a choice but TO stay in bed...no distractions...no temptations. At home, distractions will be all around me. I have to be honest...for the first time during this experience, I can safely say, I'm scared. I'm afraid of failing.
You will not fail. But we could buy handcuffs... :)
ReplyDeleteLose that type A++ and go for a C this time!